Moving on

***I just wanted to let everyone know that this past week has been insane. I just started my job, and as a new attorney it is overwhelming. I move to another state on Saturday and have been training this whole week. I wake up, go to work, come home and pack, and finally to bed. I have also had a horrible cold and high fever to top it all off. I wanted to at least post something this week.***



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As Meg and I sat in silence, I couldn't help but let my mind wander. I wasn't sure why she was here, or what she wanted. I figured I had given her many chances, now I would sit and wait for her to make the first move.



"I don't even know where to start," she muttered.



I sat there without saying a word. For the first time I felt angry. I mean I was angry before, but not like this. Before I would be angry, but always felt that I could give her another chance. This time I wasn't to sure.



"I guess the first thing I should do is apologize," I tried to interrupt her to say it wasn't really worth it anymore, but she held her hand up to stop me, so I let her keep going.



"I know an apology isn't worth much , but I figured an explanation is the least that you deserve after all I have put you through."



"I guess an explanation couldn't really make things any worse," I replied.



I sat there in shock as the words came out of Meg's mouth. After what seemed like hours she was finally done with the whole story. I didn't know what to think. What I found out was that back when Pat and I were dating, Meg found out her parents were having issues. These weren't normal issues. Her mom found out her dad was having an affair. Meg was upset and wanted nothing to do with her dad, but her mom decided to look the other way.



Meg was angry and hurt and wanted someone to feel her pain. She did not lash out at her parents because she felt they were feeling enough. Instead she lashed out at me. She slept with Pat and broke my heart instead. She became what she was so busy hating in her own life, she became the other woman. This became a pattern for her. She would feel angry at her parents and take it out on me. Why on me, this I did not understand.



Her mom, still to this day, looks the other way when it comes to her husband's affair. Meg to this day this had not lashed out at her parents.

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I will try to finish this tomorrow. I can barely get out of bed, and I am hoping to feel better soon.