Finding my religion

Rome was in word: spiritual. Let me set the background. I think I have mentioned before that both Aaron and I are private school brats. We both also have been attending private Catholic school since preschool. Needless to say that religion has been very important in both of our lives. I have had religion in my life as far as I can remember and my family has always been very religious as well. Because it has been such an important force in my life I was more then ecstatic to be visiting Rome and more importantly Vatican City.

The friends we stayed with had their living quarters located in viewing distance of Vatican city. When we first made our way there I was more then just in awe at the chance to view everything around me. We got there late Friday night. Once we got there we were able to finally sit with friends and have some dinner. Below their apartments where the students for the Rome program are housed, is a small restaurant. They had lots of outdoor seating and we took over a big part of the restaurant. That night we spent eating, drinking some delicious red wine, and catching up with our friends. The next thing we knew we were closing down the place. We headed back up to their apartment and got ready for bed.

Aaron and i were sleeping in a pull out couch in their living room area. We settled ourselves in and realized we were no where near tired. As we lay there we started talking about religion. Being able to share not only a connection on a physical and emotional level, but also a religious level made everything that has been happening with us make more sense. We talked about how religion influences our views from politics to everyday views. It is refreshing to be able to talk to someone not only about how my day was but also about religion and how it impacts my view of the world. We talked for what seemed like hours and eventually we both fell asleep.

The next morning we woke up, got ready, and headed down to the little restaurant with the rest of the group for some breakfast. We were going to go check out Vatican City and I could not be more excited. Aaron kept joking around with me that you could see how giddy I was in my face. And I was. I was so excited to be able to finally see one of the things I said I would see before I died. What made it more special is that I was sharing it with someone who understood why it meant so much to me.

Once we had eaten our share for the morning we headed out. Once standing there in the midst of all that symbolizes my religion I was left speechless. I was holding Aaron's hand and I just squeezed it. He knew that I did not need him to say anything so he just squeezed it back. We spend the day in Vatican City. From the Swiss Guards to St. Peter's Basilica everything was amazing. I sat in one of the pews and literally thanked God for giving me a chance to be seeing this. The whole time Aaron had his hand in mine knowing that it was all I needed.

We made it back to the apartments and enjoyed yet another fabulous dinner. After more catching up we all headed to bed. Aaron and I had to catch an early flight back to London since we had so much work to get done when we got back.

Back on the plane on our way back to London Aaron looked at me and said my name, "A?"

"Yeah."

"You had fun didn't you?" he asked.

"I had an amazing time," I told him. "It was more then amazing, I got to see something I have been wanting to see all my life, and I got to see with you."

He smiled that crooked smile and held my hand up to his face. He kissed my hand and said, "I am glad I got to share this weekend with you too."

We finally made it back to the flat and realized we were too tired to get any work done that night. We went into my room and intended to take a nap. I snuggled up to him and laid my head on his chest. He kissed the top of my head, said "you're amazing", and the next thing I knew it was the next morning.

Quick note

I just wanted to let everyone that has been reading know that there will be lots of double, triple, and even quadruple posts in the next couple days. The reason is two-fold. One, I finally have lots of free time for the next month or so. Two, I have had lots of exciting stuff happening in the last 6 months or so I would love to share with you.

So keep reading, enjoy my London adventure and hope you keep reading.

Thanks to everyone that has been reading and leaving comments I appreciate it all!!!

Love,
A.

Getting along

It has been a week since our amazing candle filled night at the flat. This past week has been filled with a mountain of work and not much else. We were put into "firms" in our class and given a huge project. We had to conduct an international arbitration from start to finish. This would entail depositions, affidavits, preparing opening/closing statements, and preparing direct and cross examinations.

This would also force 8 of us to work together for the next month or so preparing what would be our final project. The first meeting went pretty smoothly and everyone seemed to get along. But by the second meetings the claws were starting to come out. When you stick 8 type A personalities in one room and force them to put egos aside, it becomes one hard hard task.

Aaron and I were so thankful to be on the same team so we at least were able to spend time with each other. We are both interested in the same type of law so our minds tend to work alike. But we had so many other legal backgrounds in the group that putting us together seemed to not be working. This group project was what was consuming our every waking moment lately. It was hard to still want to spend time with these people outside the class/work environment.

Aaron and I had decided we wanted to take in one of the many plays that London has to offer. We found a perfect one. If anyone ever gets a chance to see it, it is a must!! The play is called "Some Girl(s)" and when we saw it, it was starring David Schwimmer as the lead. I must say it was totally worth the money. That night was also a nice distratction from all the bickering that had been going with our group members over legal strategy and what was the best route to be taking in our case.

After the play we found what we thought looked like a really good Italian restaurant. We sat down and ordered and waiting with anticipation for our food. I was starving and was happy to be eating more then sandwiches (which is what my lunch had consisted of for the past week). When our food came it looked delicious. But that bubble was burst with our first bite. The food was horrible. It tasted like a TV dinner you would buy at the grocery store. By the end of the meal we were both laughing so hard at how bad it actually was that it made dinner enjoyable.

When we were making our way back to the flat we realized that we were still starving, so we stopped at the Chinese restaurant near our flat and picked up some take out. We took the food back to the flat and sat in our kitchen with our files in front of us. We had a closing statement to write that would have to withstand the scrutiny of our group.

It has been a week full of work and there is only more to come. Because there had been so much work and everyone around us had been so crabby we were trying to plan another weekend trip somewhere. Our school had another program in Italy that was going on at the same time, and we both had friends there right now. We were able to get in touch with them and secured ourselves a free place to stay. We booked our flights on Ryan Air and could not be more excited to be traveling to Italy.

I cannot wait to share yet another city with this amazing man!

Dinner for Two

When we woke up the next morning he was forced to do the walk of shame back to his bedroom while the rest of our flat watched him and smirked. I showered and got ready for class and met the rest of the flatmates outside as usual. We took the tube down to the main campus and embarked upon our daily routine of class followed by lunch.

After lunch we all decided to go check out the Westminster Abby, the Tower of London, and any other attraction that was in the area. It was all a good time. I still have not gotten tired of London. So much to experience, so much to see. By the time we all made it back to the flat it was almost dinner time.

I decided I wanted to take a shower before dinner because the heat had gotten unbearable. I was under the impression that we would all be eating dinner together in our flat that night. I headed to my room and jumped in the shower. The cold water felt so good and I was not looking forward to having to leave the shower. I spent a good 45 minutes in there just enjoying the water. After the shower I took my time getting ready. I slipped into a sundress and hoped that would keep me cool.

When I walked out of my room I realized that the hallway lights were off. I called out my flatmates' names, but no one answered. "Weird," I said out loud.

I walked into the kitchen and realized it was lit by nothing more then two candles sitting in the middle of the table. I looked around and noticed that there were two plates on the table with a heaping helping of lasagna and two glasses of wine. As I stood there I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned around and saw Aaron. "Surprise," he said with a huge grin on his face.

"How did you do this? Where is everyone else? What is going on?", I was full of questions and they were all coming out all at once.

"I made it last night and just had to pop it in the oven today. As to everyone else I begged them to give us the flat for the night with the promise that I would cook everyone dinner tomorrow. And as to what is going on, I wanted to show you how much you have come to mean to me A."

I was completely speechless. If you are wondering how dinner from him can be a bribe, you have to understand that his dad is a chef and he has picked up a lot. He also loves to cook so it helps.

"Thank you," is all I could muster. I stood on my tip toes and kissed him on the lips.

We sat down and enjoyed an amazing dinner with a bottle of wine. He had even made me dessert, strawberry cheesecake!!

After dinner He grabbed my hand and led me to his room. Right before we walked in he asked me to close my eyes. I obediently did as I was told and held onto his hand so he could guide me in. When I heard the door close behind me I stood there waiting to be told I could open them. Once he let go of my hand he told me I could open my eyes. What I saw literally took my breath away. His room was filled with candles. Vanilla scented candles everywhere (since I had mentioned to him once that they were my favorite). I could not believe that he would do all this for me. No one had ever done something like this for me.

"Aaron, this is amazing. You did this for me?", I asked him as he stood in front of me.

"A.," he said and led me to the bed. "I know this may seem sudden and perhaps like I am moving too fast. But I have fallen in love with you. I know its crazy and its been so short of time, but I can't deny how I feel."

I was completely in awe. I had this man before me, a man I see as everything I have ever wanted in someone, telling me that he loved me. He loved me, A. Not someone else, but me! I looked up at him leaned into him, kissed him softly on the lips and whispered, "I love you too!".

He put his arm around me, smiled bigger then I have ever seen him smile and pulled onto his lap. He put his hand behind my neck and pulled me into one of his mind blowing kisses. At that moment I wanted to make love to the man that I knew I loved. I moved so that I would be straddling him. As we continued kissing him I could feel his body craving me as well. This time he was completely in control and I was enjoying every minute of it.

He slipped my sundress over my head, and in one swift motion unhinged my bra. As we kissed wildly I pulled on his shirt and finally got his polo over his head. I noticed that his bathroom light was still on so I looked towards the bathroom and back towards him. He gave me a dirty little smile and lifted me off his lap and into his arms. He carried me towards the bathroom all the while kissing me. Once in the bathroom he had the rest of our clothes off within seconds. He played with the water temperature with one hand and held me in his arms kissing me with the other. once the water was right he lifted me off the floor and onto the shower.

I could feel the water hit our bodies and his hands roam my body. He lifted me off the floor and pressed my back against the shower wall, and soon we became one. I could feel him and he could feel me. He whispered that he loved me into my ear and I whispered it right back to him. I truly did love him. I had found the man I had been looking for and it was all by mere coincidence.

Within minutes we both were rocking into each other and our bodies had found their rhythm. We continued like that for what seemed like hours, and soon I could feel the release that was about to happen. When it came we both held on to each other and I could feel his lips on my shoulder.

When we turned the water off he grabbed a towel and wrapped me up in it. He carried me back into the bedroom and laid me down on his bed. We made love at least two more times that night and we fell asleep exhausted in each others arms. The last thing I heard was him whispering he loved me and the last thing I saw was the face of the man I loved.

When the heat gets to you

The heat has taken over and has made it unbearable at times. When we are not in class we try to find places that have air conditioning, and we have discovered that the movie theater down the block from our flat is perfect.

We went to see "Mr. and Mrs. Smith" today and I can't say that I liked the movie very much. What I did find amusing is that I felt like I was back in junior high. We went in a group of about 12 of us and all sat together in the theater. I felt like I was on a "date" a la junior high. Where all your friends are there but you get to sit next to the boy you like and hope he holds your hand.

Even with everything that has happened with Aaron, i still felt chills when he first reached to hold my hand. I really did feel like I was back in junior high.

After the movie we all decided to head to a pub that is right across the street from the theater. Although we have class tomorrow morning, it did not stop us from getting a little crazy. I don't think they liked us much because we got lots of "f'ing Americans" while we were there. But we brushed it off and enjoyed ourselves. We must have heard at least 5 Britney Spears songs while we were there and proceeded to sing along to all of them, at least the girls did. We indulged in lots and lots of Magners and stumbled our way back to the flat.

When we made it back to the flat I was feeling very adventurous. While in Paris I had picked up a lacy pink little number. I had resolved on our walk back to the flat that tonight was the night to try it out. When we were standing right outside my room I stood on my tiptoes and whispered into Aaron's ear, "I want you."

The look on his face was exactly what I was looking for. He grabbed my hand, said goodnight to everyone and literally dragged me into my room. After I locked the door behind me I gently pushed him towards my bed.

"I need you to just sit here and get comfortable...I will be right back," I said to him while batting my eyelashes at him.

He sat back on my bed, I grabbed the little bag I had in my closet and headed to my bathroom. I closed the door behind me and slipped what I was wearing off. I slipped on the pink lacy bra and the pink lace boy shorts I had bought. I put some body spray on and let my hair down. Since the light switch to my bedroom was right outside my bathroom I hit the switch as I walked out. My room was lit by nothing but the light radiating from the moon. I walked out and stood there and allowed him to take me in. The look on his face made me feel sexy and wanted.

I walked towards him and flirtatiously said, "surprise!"

As i neared him I could feel his body tense up with anticipation. I stood right in front of him and started to slowly undue his buttons. When I had his shirt off I striped his under shirt off with no problem. I grabbed his hands and helped him up. Once I had him standing up I tugged on his belt and slid his shorts off him. He stepped out of them without hesitation. Once he was standing there in nothing but his boxers I was able to finally take the sight of him in. He stood before me 6'2'', wide shouldered and muscular. I remember biting my lip at the thought of what would soon be happening.

I pushed him back on the bed and climbed on top of him. I was sitting there straddling him while his hands rested on my hips and he sat up to meet me face to face. He looked at me and whispered, "you are amazing."

I began to kiss his neck and I felt his hands begin to roam by back. I soon made my way to his lips and our kisses were deep and hungry. We both wanted each other with a force to strong to stop. As we were kissing I felt my bra strap unhinge and I saw that crooked smile directed towards me. I heard him groan as he slipped it off of me. He dipped his head down and planted kisses from my neck to my breasts and back up my neck. I couldn't help but moan his name.

Within minutes my boy shorts were off, his boxers were off, and I had him above me looking down at me. My body was waiting for him and I wanted him so bad. He was planting tiny kissed up and down my neck and down to my breasts. He was making it unbearable. After more torture, I finally got what I wanted. What we both wanted. We were rocking back and forth as one. I felt pleasure that only he could give me. We moved together for what seemed like an eternity, until we both finally released it all. We clung to each other and felt each other go breathless. As I was beginning to let my body relax from the release we had both experience, he leaned into my ear and whispered, "I love you." My eyes opened and I looked up at him...

Paris, the city of love!

So....Paris was...AMAZING!!! We ended up booking our tickets for the chunnel and two nights at a reasonably priced hotel. It also turned out to be Aaron, Meg, the guy, and me. Meg and I were planning on sharing a room and the two guys were sharing a room.

When we first got there it was close to 4 0'clock. We made it to the hotel, dropped our stuff off and headed out to check out the sights. There were two things that Aaron and I had on our list of things we had to see: the Louvre Museum and the Cathedral of Notre Dame. Before we hit the tourists attractions we decided to get something to eat. Right outside our hotel was a little restaurant with outdoor seating so we took advantage of the nice weather and ate outside. I really don't know what I was eating but it was good!!

After lunch we decided we would hit the Museum and try to get some good pictures of the Eiffel Tower before we did anything else. And we did have another whole day in the city, so we did not want to rush. We made it to museum, which I fell in love with and got a good picture of the Tower. Our first night there was nothing too exciting. We walked around for a bit and headed back to the hotel. Meg and I retired to our rooms and that was that.

The second day was amazing from start to finish. We had breakfast at the hotel and then we ended up spliting up for the day. Aaron and I wanted to make sure we made it the Cathedral, while the other two headed out to do some shopping. On our walk and metro ride Aaron and I were inseparable. We had our fingers interlacing and he kept giving me little kisses every chance he got. We got to the Cathedral and just took the sights in. It was amazing to be able to share something that I have always wanted to see with him.

By the time we were out of the Cathedral, it was time for lunch. We found another tiny cafe with outdoor seating and enjoyed a lunch along with another one of our great conversations. While eating lunch we took some time to look through our guide book and decided we wanted to do a boat ride down the Seine, but also wanted to do it at night. So we killed time just walking around the city hand in hand.

When it was time for the boat ride we heade out to where we were suppouse to be. The scenery from the boat ride is amazing. You get to see the whole city, but that was not what made it memorable to me. While on the boat we started to talk.

He looked at me and said my name. I looked up at him wondering what he was thinking and he said, "I think...no...I know I have fallen for you. And I also know that I want to be the only one falling for you." He seemed a little nervous and kept fidgeting with my hand. "A., what I am trying to say is I would like it if we were to see each other and only each other. I know its hard right now because we are far away from home and its easy to get caught up. But I say we start here and see where it leads us back home."

I looked up at him and did the only thing I could think of doing in response. I reached up and kissed him. He smiled and I knew he knew what I was thinking. He wrapped his arms around me and we just stood like that for what seemed like hours. I turned my head towards him and said, "I hope you realized I meant I agree with you."

He laughed, and said that he did understand what I meant when I kissed him and went on to poke fun at me for being careful about everything.

When we made it back to the hotel I knew I wanted to spend my last night there with him. I ran into Meg and the guy at the lobby when they were on their way out again, and I asked her if she minded sleeping in the other room. She laughed and said "what's a friend for!"

With a room to ourselves we headed up to our room. He stopped at his room and grabbed his bag. Once in the room together we sat and talked for a long time. After awhile as we were laying in bed still talking we both realized what we both wanted.

We started with slow kisses. He kissed my forehead. Each eyelid. Each cheeck. Then finally my mouth. His kisses were so soft and tender I felt a rush of emotion start within me. When we undressed each other it was slow and passionate. I slowly undid all the buttons on his shirt as we sat on our knees on the bed. Our mouths would not leave each other. Once we were both undressed he laid me back on the bed and just looked into my eyes.

I have never been so nervous in my life. My heart was pounding and every nerve in my body was on end. He asked me if i was sure I wanted to do this, and I told him i was more then sure. The next thing I knew we were making love (and yes, we were safe). It was slow and tender and wild and passionate at the same time. The next morning i woke up in his arms and to him just looking at me. The first thing I head that morning was, "good morning beautiful." We ended up making love again that morning. Afterwards, we laid in bed for what seemed like hours and then forced ourserlves up.

We had to make the trip back to London, back to our flat. But we both knew the trip was going to be a whole different experience from then on. We knew we wanted to spend as much time together and experience new things together.

When we got back to the flat and it was time to go to bed, he stayed in my room. We made love again that night and as I lay there falling asleep I realized that i could get use to this. I could get use to being in his arms.

Confessions of the heart

So we ended up just making out last night...and lets just say it got a little more intense then the first time. I am usually not this forward or willing to jump into bed with anyone, EVER!! But with him it just feels so right.

It is so nice that class ends so early in the day and by 11am we are done for the day. After class we all went to lunch and then went our separate ways. Aaron and i decided to go check out Kensington Palace (The picture to the left is of Kensington Gardens, its the view we had as we sat there). It was beautiful and the front gate is full of flowers and cards to Princess Diana. Along the path in the back there are benches. We sat there and he had his arm around me. As we were sitting there he was running his fingers up and down my arm.

"You are amazing A.," he said to me. I just looked up at him and smiled.

"I really mean it. I have never felt like this before. You have me in this daze. I can't get enough of you. When I am not with you I want you near me and when I'm with you I just want to be touching you."

He seemed so deep in thought I was afraid to say anything, but I knew I had to say something and not leave him feeling that his feeling were not reciprocated.

"Aaron, I know exactly how you feel. I am not usually this open and willing to just fall. But you have made it so easy for me."

He put his hand on my chin and turned my face towards him.

He kissed the top of my head, "I," kissed my eyes, "am," kissed my cheek, "falling," kissed my lips, "for you." I was feeling so much at that moment that I had no idea what to say. I grabbed his neck and kissed him. I kissed him with all the passion and emotion that I was feeling.

"I am falling for you too," I said breathlessly.

We stayed like that for a while and then made our way towards more sights. We walked through Hyde Park and decided that we would have to come back here with a picnic. As we were walking we also realized it was our first weekend in Europe and everyone was making plans to travel. We had heard that tickets to take the Chunnel to Paris were relatively cheap and we could always share a hotel room. As the thought of sharing a room with him crossed my mind, so did the possibility of what could happen if we shared a room and perhaps even a bed.

It was decided we would go back to the flat and buy the tickets online and find a cheap hotel to stay at. Paris here we come!!!

Once we got back to the flat I decided it was time to spend a little time with Meg, since we had not done anything together since we got to London. So we stopped at the liquor store on the way back and I bought two bottles of wine and some snacks.

When I got back to the flat I found Meg in her room. I walked in with my hands behind my back. "Guess what I have?!," I asked her. I pulled the bottles of wine from behind my back and she clapped her hands and said, "Yay!"

We spend the evening drinking wine and chatting. I told her everything that had been happening with Aaron and about the trip to Paris. She was all for it and had some fun stories for me. She had been spending some quality time with one of the guys that was living in one of the other flats that was in the program with us.

Am I crazy for falling for him so fast? I feel like things are going at a lighting speed yet I am loving it. I can't wait until tomorrow. Paris here we come!!!

A little info

I had posted this in a comment...but thought I would post it here so everyone can read it. I just wanted to let everyone know these are postings from a journal I kept while in London the summer of 2005. I just type out what I had for that day. Sometime depending on how much I wrote you may get double or triple posts! Thanks for the comments I have received and hope you enjoy it, I know I enjoy writing it and a chance to reminisce.

Pictures

Here is a picture of the Millenium Bridge at night time. This is a view after walking the whole length of the bridge. I had gotten a comment asking to see pictures, so here are a few to share. Here is the fountain in Trafalgar Square, its right outside of the National Gallery and where we had lunch.
Here is a picture from the London, haven't told you guys about that day yet but it was awesome!!

A little learning and a little doodling

Today was our first day class. I started my morning with a knock on my door. When I opened the door I saw Aaron standing with a big grin and cup of coffee in hand.

"Here you go pretty lady," he said with that same grin still plastered on his face.

He had been up for a while and had gone to the coffee shop just down the block and gotten us some coffee. Still another make me melt moment. He bent down and gave me a little kiss as I said thanks. I grabbed my bag and books and we met the rest of the flatmates downstairs in front of the building.

We walked the short distance to the tube station and headed to the campus. The main campus where our class is in downtown London, or is it central London. I don't know, I'm still up with their lingo..hehe. Once we found the campus and found our classroom we all took our seats. Aaron sat next to me and we spent the entire class doodling on each other's notebooks. If you would have seen us, you would think we were in 5th grade again. There was a lot of little touches here and there and lots of smiles.

The class itself was a little on the long side, but we have some amazing professors. We literally have the people that wrote the book on the topic.

After class we all headed out to a little sandwich place we found on our walk to class. The food was amazing and I got a chance to spend sometime with the rest of the group.

Instead of heading back to the flat, Aaron and I decided to go do a little shopping. He wanted to pick up some gifts for the family and wanted some help. We started at one of the shopping with the really high end stores and ended up at the cheap discounts stores. We stopped and had some ice cream and waked hand in hand the entire time.

When we realized that we had been shopping for hours we decided to pick up chinese take out from the place near our flat and head back to one of rooms to eat it.

Once we got to my room and were sitting on my bed eating he said he wanted to talk. The first thing that came to mind was..."great, he is about to tell me has a girlfriend back home." But instead he started to talk to me about how it had only been a few days yet he felt like he knew me forever. I told him I knew what he meant. So we had the talk about if we had anyone back home. I told him about my ex-bf and that situation. We talked about the fact that we were both feeling a lot really fast, and ended the conversation with a kiss. We also decided to just lay in bed and do our reading.

He laid with his head on one side of the bed and i laying opposite him. We laid in silence for a good two hours and just read. After I was finished I realized that he was just laying there with his hands behind his head staring at me. So with a little naughty smile I slowly crawled my way to him...

Hitting the town!

So tonight was the first time we all got together and headed out for night out in the city of London. We headed to the Picadelly Circus area and figured we would find clubs and bars that way. It was a big group of us, and I was so happy Aaron was in that group.

Because I knew he was coming I wanted to make sure I looked extra hot...he he. i went with a pair of jeans that fit me very well if do say so myself and a red strapless top with some fun black sandals. I also opted for my hair down and curled.

Once we caught the tube down to where we needed to be it was time for a little fun. We started at a quiet little pub and had some Pims and Magners (a hard irish cider). Once there we all decided to start the night off with a round of shots. Now with a little buzz we headed to find a place with a dance floor. This entire time Aaron would not leave my side and I was loving it!! We had our fingers interlaced as we were walking down the street.

Once inside the next bar I headed straight for the dance floor and dragged him right behind me. They were playing Britney Spears "Toxic", which made me laugh because she is still loved in Europe apparently. Once on the dance floor we didn't stop. We danced none stop all night long. And soon those one round of shots turned into, two and three, and four...and we lost count. By the time we left we were both feeling pretty sober considering all that dancing. But some of our flatmates were not looking too good. The tube ride back was nothing special. But i did get to stand in front of Arron and have his arms wrapped around me. Is it crazy and i am totally falling for someone i have known for under a week!?!?!?!

Once back at the flat I told him I was no where near tired so he asked if I wanted to watch a movie. I told him I would love it. I even surprised him with a movie that was not girly at all. I had forgotten that I had brought "The Messengers" with me. So we put the movie in my computer, but not before we both changed into PJ'S. After about 30 minutes into the movie and lots of me squealing and covering my eyes, we were suddenly kissing. I have no idea how it started but we were totally making out. And I mean full on making out...kissing, hands roaming, the whole nine yards. I know i said it before, but every kiss from him makes me weak in the knees. And at this rate it was ten times as intense. We didn't go any further but we did just lay and cuddle for a couple hours and talked. Yet another of those amazing conversations. As we talked I laid my head on his chest and he had his arm around me while he played with my hair.

I am totally head over heels for this guy!!!!

Amazing!

Amazing, that is what tonight was. Around 8ish I heard a knock on my door. I had been primping for the last hour that i was in my own little world.

With the help from Meg, I had decided to go with a flirty strapless pink cotton dress and a pair of white flip flops. I even had her curl my hair and I wore down. And i have to say, I have really nice hair..he he. When I wear it down it goes about 4 inches down my back. Anyways, after applying one last coat of lip gloss I opened the door. And to say that I swooned at the sight of him would be an understatement. He was dressed in a pair of khaki shorts and wearing a baby blue button up shirt, with the sleeves rolled up. ( I love when guys do that!!). The shirt made his blue eyes just jump out. He was holding a piece of paper in his hand, and when he handed it to me I had another one of those "i just melted moments". On the paper was a drawing of a little flower. I looked up at him and he said..."I have no idea where a flower shop is around here, but I wanted to get you a flower. So this is as close as I could get."

I just about melted. In this really happening to me, is what i kept asking. We made our way out to the tube station and took the tube that would get us closest to Millennium Bridge. I was super excited because I had heard it is a gorgeous sight at night. We made our walk towards the bridge and I was not disappointed. The bridge is completely lit up and with the dark sky in the back ground it was a sight to behold.

As we were walking he held my hand and I swear my heart skipped a beat. We walked the entire bridge and at the end had someone take our picture. Right off the water was a restaurant with a really cool retro look. It was dark and lit by a ton of candles everywhere. You would think this was planned on his part, but we found it completely by accident. We got our table, sat and ordered a specialty pizza to share and ordered a pitcher of Pims (my new favorite drink). During dinner we once again had one of those amazing conversations. After everyone of these I find myself falling for him. After dinner we walked around more and headed back towards the bridge. We lingered there a little more. Right as we were about to head back and we were talking about which direction to head off to...he started to just stare at me.

He was looking at me and it made me a little self-conscious. I asked him what was wrong and he responded with "nothing, I am just thinking of how badly I want to kiss you". Yeah, another one of those makes me swoon moments. I have never been so nervous in my life for a kiss or waited with such anticipation for one before. As i saw him lean in I couldn't help but let out a little sigh. He smiled and leaned in and finally kissed me.

OH MY GOD!!! I've been kissed before, but never like this. I literally felt my knees give and my stomach flip flop. He was so gentle and so warm. The way he held me in his arms. I am getting dizzy just thinking about it.

We eventually did make it back to the flat and had one more kiss at my bedroom door. He walked the three feet to his room and i closed the door to mine. And now here i am reliving it all in my head.

The good and the bad

This morning I woke up to a nice email from my bf/ex-bf...whatever I want to call him. He pretty much said that he needed some time to think and felt that a break would be the best right now. The good thing is that our living situation is not horribly weird. We share an apartment, but we each have our own rooms (for the sake of my grandparents...they still believe no living together or hanky-panky until marriage, so I do it to make them happy). So i am at least happy with the though that if he were to bring a girl home it would not be to my bed. And the weird part is that I am surprisingly okay with all this.

After I woke up/showered and made sure I looked cute before leaving my room (I went with a denim skirt and a coral colored top with a pair of sandals that matched the top perfectly! I also decided to wear my hair up), I walked into the kitchen and the rest of my flat mates were already up and chatting about the their plans for the day. Meg was off for some shopping with two of the girls we went to school with, and everyone else was off to catch some sights.

Aaron and I decided to follow through on our plans to go to the Palace and the National Gallery. And let me say that I had an AMAZING time with him again! We took the tube to where we thought would be close to the palace but realized we were way off. So we took out a map and tried to figure it out. After about ten minutes of staring at the map Aaron looks down at me (he is about 6'2'' and i am whole 5'1'') and says "i'm going to have to get in the map!".

I was a little confused until I saw him put the map down and stand on top of it....he looked at me and gave me a crooked little smile and said "get it, like Joey did on 'Friends'". I could not help by burst out laughing....and of course take a picture. As I was laughing he was just staring at me with that same crooked smile.

"What?", I asked him.

And his response just about made me melt...."nothing, i just love hearing you laugh."

After a little more flirting we finally decided to ask someone where the palace was...we found it and got some awesome pictures of the changing of the guard. I even have one of me hugging the guard as he is super still and serious. We also bothered some other tourists and asked them to take our picture....a super cute one with his arm around me.

After the palace we realized it was lunch time and we were starving. We found a little restaurant overlooking Trafalgar square and had lunch. As we sat and ate our lunch we talked some more. And realized just how much we had a in common. From religion, to politics, to even our childhood. We are both private school brats...ha ha. And I know it is only day two of knowing this guy, but I have to admit I totally crushing.

We eventually made it the National Gallery and got a chance to see some amazing things. On our tube ride back to the flat we were in a pretty crowded cart since we caught rush hour. Since I had nothing to hold on to and it was a pretty bumpy ride i held on to him. And I have to say that it felt really good. You know the feeling when you just fit well with someone else. He put his arm around my back and i just leaned into him. When we got back to the flat I was in my room looking at what I would have to be reading for the days to come when I heard a knock on my door. It was Aaron.

He came to ask me out...i laughed and told him we had been out all day. He looked at me and said, "I am asking you out on a proper date, so I will come back from my room in about two hours, and pick you up, then we will head out to dinner."

I must have had a weird look on my face....because he started stuttering and said..."well if its okay with you."

I laughed and told him I would love to.

So in about and hour and half i am going on a date in London!!! I am so giddy!! I will most definitely have to come back and post how it went! Stuff like this never happens to me.....it feels like i am dreaming...nope not dreaming...i just pinched myself. Now off to get ready for my date!!!!

My first day...

My first day out and about in London could not have been better!! The flat I share with 5 other people is pretty nice. We all have our own bedroom/bathrooms and we share a kitchen.

When I got up this morning to have some breakfast I walked into the kitchen and Aaron was already sitting at the head of the table with a bowl of cereal in front of him and a book about London. He looked up and smiled. We exchanged hellos and then as we were chatting I realized that we went to the same law school. I know it sounds dumb that we never met each other, but it actually does make sense. I had my classes in the morning section and he had his in the afternoon section, we never crossed paths.

After realizing how funny it was that we had to come all the way to London to meet each other, we also realized that we had a common love of museums. So we grabbed our stuff and headed out to explore London....but before sneaking into Meg's room and squealing to her that I was going to go spend the day with Aaron.

I was so happy that I packed some cute clothes for the trip. I had on my favorite white Capri, a pink top and my favorite pink sketchers. We caught the tube near our flat and decided to head to the V&A museum first. On our ride there we got lucky and had a pretty empty cart. We got a chance to talk and get to know each other. After the V&A we just wandered around and found a great little pub. We had a couple beers and headed back to the flat. As we were walking back in he told me he had a such a great time and hoped we would be seeing more of each other throughout this trip. I couldn't help but blush.

After dinner with the rest of my flatmates Aaron and I decided we would watch a movie. We had to watch it on my computer since we had no TV in our flat. I convinced him to watch one of my many girly movies I brought with me. We ended up watching "How to loose a guy in 10 days". We both laid on my bed with our heads on opposite sides. I am 25 years old and I still felt butterflies whenever he would touch my skin on accident.

I know I just met him, and I know its insane...but I have never clicked with anyone the way I click with him. We have this amazing connection. We talked about everything and nothing at all today. We shared our live stories and still had no weird moments of silence. We have two more days before our classes start, and we already made plans for tomorrow. The palace and the National Gallery.

The begining...

I'm here!!! I can't believe I am really here! Meg (my best friend in the whole world), and I finally arrived in London. Gatwick airport was the first thing of London I have seen, and let me tell you not a pretty picture. We are here for one fabulous month taking a class through our law school(little background info: I just finished my first year of law school) so this is a summer abroad with lots of other law students.

I was super excited about the class I was taking, but not so excited about the prospect of leaving my live-in boyfriend back home. Anyways, after we got to the airport Meg and I knew we had to meet one of our classmates at his gate and take the train to our flats in the city. When we finally got through customs (and my god did it take a long time!!) we found him. He had ran into six other people who were in our program from back home. So we all took the train to the tube station and then finally made it to our flat. (Let me say that it is hot here and the tube/train ride was horrible, my luggage broke and i have blisters on my hands now!!).

Anyways, all of that can be forgotten because the moment Meg and I made it into the flat we would be sharing with four other people I saw him. He introduced himself. Aaron. He held his hand out to me and I took it. He was tall, dark hair, blue blue eyes, and oh so handsome. I don't think I actually said my name at first. I just stared. I was going to be living with him for two months!!!

My first thought was, "I can't live with him when all I want to do is jump him!!" So here I am in london , far away from home, with a gorgeous gorgeous man in a room next door to me. And oh yeah, my boyfriend...just got an email from him..."I think we need a break" was the last line.

So sorry to whoever might be reading it if is a little nonsensical...but i am blaming jet lag, my email from my bf..or ex-bf...and all that jazz!! Hope you come back to see what my london adventure holds for me!!!