Saying goodbye or not

It has been one amazing month! I have met so many people and made friends that will stay with me forever. I have experienced things that I never thought I would. The most amazing thing that I will take with me is the fact that I allowed myself to fall in love. I can't imagine this trip without Aaron. We've had so much fun together that we were not ready to leave.

Because we were not ready to leave yet and face our lives back in the states yet, we decided to extend our trip by three days. We booked a train north to Nottingham and reserved a room in a tiny hotel in the area.

We were all packed and ready to go. Everyone had cleaned out their rooms and the hallway was filled with suitcases.

I walked into Megs room to see if she needed any help. As I helped her clean out her room we sat and just chatted.

"You really do like him don't you A.?" she asked me.

"Oh Meg, I fell hard for him. I don't even know where it came from. Go figure, me Ms. uber guarded would finally just fall," I said to her with a smile.

"I'm happy for you I really am. When we you guys get back to the states and we are all over the jet lag we should all get together."

"I would love that. You know that it means a lot to me that you like him. You're my best friend and if you didn't like him it would be torture," I said to her, hoping she would respond that she did like him.

"A., he makes you smile. Besides he takes away some of your anal retentive tendencies, "she said while sticking her tongue out at me.

I helped her pack up what was left of her room and headed back to mine to drag my suitcase out. When we were all ready we all said our goodbyes. Some of these people I would see back home, and some were going home to different states. Most of us shared a couple cabs to the train station.

Aaron and I took a train up to Nottingham, and the rest of the group continued on to the airport. The train ride was a good time to just sit and relax. We got lucky and had no one in our compartment. I pulled out a book and he pulled out a magazine. We sat there quietly reading. He had one arm around me and the other hand on his magazine. It feels right when you can sit with the person in total silence and not feel the need to fill that silence.

When we finally arrived we had to find our hotel. I thought we were staying in a hotel or hostel type of place, but since I had not been the one that booked it I really had no idea what we were looking for.

Nottingham is known as Robin Hood country and is known for the history it possess. Once we finally did make it to where we would be staying I was speechless. It was a cabin right on a lake. It was a resort type location and with individual log cabins that could be rented out. Aaron must have seen my jaw hit the floor because he started to laugh.

"So I guess I should explain all this huh?" he said with a little chuckle. "See, I figured that tomorrow is the one month anniversary of our first date...and I figured it would be nice to spend it in an extra special way."

He seemed so nervous to be explaining everything I couldn't help but giggle. I set my bag down and threw my arms around his neck. "Aaron, you are amazing. I love this!!", I said and gave him a big kiss.

We finally went inside and I could not believe my eyes. There was a huge fireplace with a brown overstuffed couch in front of it. We had a little kitchen to the right and a door that led to the bedroom and one to the bathroom on the left. I was like a kid. I ran into the kitchen and opened up every drawer, fridge, and even the oven. I then made my way to the bedroom and saw a huge bed and another fireplace in the bedroom. The bathroom had a huge bathtub, actually a hot tub but I did not realize it at the time.

He was finally able to get me out of the cabin and we headed out to check out Nottingham Castle. On our walk there we stopped at a little pub and had lunch. We took a cave tour and looked around in the museum. We made our way back to the cabin. On our way back we stopped and picked up stuff to cook for dinner and to have for breakfast the next morning.

We spent the rest of that day and the entire next day in the cabin. Well, I'm not going to lie, we spent the entire time in bed, on the couch, and even the floor..hehe. I can't complain. I had a gorgeous man and I kept him pretty much naked for a whole day and half..hehe.

We unfortunately had to pack up and take a train back to London to catch our flight. Our flight was horrible. 24 hours on a plane and in airports. By the time we had made it back to the States we had been awake for a full 24 hours. Once back, we had to say good bye to each other. We shared a cab and I went home and he want to his apartment. We made plans to see each other tomorrow.

I walked into my apartment and just dropped all bags. I was not looking forward to spending the night alone. I was about to finally accept that fact, when I heard a knock on the door.