Confessions of the heart

So we ended up just making out last night...and lets just say it got a little more intense then the first time. I am usually not this forward or willing to jump into bed with anyone, EVER!! But with him it just feels so right.

It is so nice that class ends so early in the day and by 11am we are done for the day. After class we all went to lunch and then went our separate ways. Aaron and i decided to go check out Kensington Palace (The picture to the left is of Kensington Gardens, its the view we had as we sat there). It was beautiful and the front gate is full of flowers and cards to Princess Diana. Along the path in the back there are benches. We sat there and he had his arm around me. As we were sitting there he was running his fingers up and down my arm.

"You are amazing A.," he said to me. I just looked up at him and smiled.

"I really mean it. I have never felt like this before. You have me in this daze. I can't get enough of you. When I am not with you I want you near me and when I'm with you I just want to be touching you."

He seemed so deep in thought I was afraid to say anything, but I knew I had to say something and not leave him feeling that his feeling were not reciprocated.

"Aaron, I know exactly how you feel. I am not usually this open and willing to just fall. But you have made it so easy for me."

He put his hand on my chin and turned my face towards him.

He kissed the top of my head, "I," kissed my eyes, "am," kissed my cheek, "falling," kissed my lips, "for you." I was feeling so much at that moment that I had no idea what to say. I grabbed his neck and kissed him. I kissed him with all the passion and emotion that I was feeling.

"I am falling for you too," I said breathlessly.

We stayed like that for a while and then made our way towards more sights. We walked through Hyde Park and decided that we would have to come back here with a picnic. As we were walking we also realized it was our first weekend in Europe and everyone was making plans to travel. We had heard that tickets to take the Chunnel to Paris were relatively cheap and we could always share a hotel room. As the thought of sharing a room with him crossed my mind, so did the possibility of what could happen if we shared a room and perhaps even a bed.

It was decided we would go back to the flat and buy the tickets online and find a cheap hotel to stay at. Paris here we come!!!

Once we got back to the flat I decided it was time to spend a little time with Meg, since we had not done anything together since we got to London. So we stopped at the liquor store on the way back and I bought two bottles of wine and some snacks.

When I got back to the flat I found Meg in her room. I walked in with my hands behind my back. "Guess what I have?!," I asked her. I pulled the bottles of wine from behind my back and she clapped her hands and said, "Yay!"

We spend the evening drinking wine and chatting. I told her everything that had been happening with Aaron and about the trip to Paris. She was all for it and had some fun stories for me. She had been spending some quality time with one of the guys that was living in one of the other flats that was in the program with us.

Am I crazy for falling for him so fast? I feel like things are going at a lighting speed yet I am loving it. I can't wait until tomorrow. Paris here we come!!!